I find it adorable when someone remembers the littlest details about you. It’s cute when that person takes the time and effort to surprise you with the things you don’t remember telling them about. It’s like they’ve read your mind. The kind of person that pays attention to what you say just so they can use it to their advantage in order to put a smile on your face. I love those thoughtful people who go out of their ways just so they can make you happy.

I could literally be balling my eyes out, having a complete meltdown, but if anyone ever texted me and they were upset, i would be the first person there to help them. That’s the kind of person i am. I love making people feel better. If you want to call me at 430 in the morning because your boyfriend broke up with you, i’ll wake up just to help you. No matter how upset or miserable i am, i always put other people’s well being before mine.

Growing up, i was always the odd girl out. everyone had their group of friends and i always tagged along trying to fit in with all of them. i was never really as close with anyone as they were with each other, and growing up without a lot of friends is so hard. i used to spend my nights hysterically crying because i didn’t have friends and no one wanted to talk to me. i don’t know what it is about me that no one likes to be friends with. i think this is why i crave attention so much. i just want to be liked. i want to have a best friend that will love me no matter what. i really thought i had that. i really really did. kara and i are inseparable, well… were. her and i are crazy loud and obnoxious, we’re literally a match made in heaven. but for my birthday, what did she do? nothing. just a few balloons for school. but when christina’s birthday rolled around, she wanted to throw her a surprise party, she almost got her a pandora bracelet and wrote a novel on her facebook wall. i know, it’s stupid things to get upset over. i don’t need a fancy present or anything really- it’s just the thought. no one ever thinks of me. no one ever does. i’ve always been the one to be forgotten about. that’s why i’m so damn lonely. that’s why i’d just rather be dead.

I find it adorable when someone remembers the littlest details about you. It’s cute when that person takes the time and effort to surprise you with the things you don’t remember telling them about. It’s like they’ve read your mind. The kind of person that pays attention to what you say just so they can use it to their advantage in order to put a smile on your face. I love those thoughtful people who go out of their ways just so they can make you happy.

You know when you’re upset? and you’re listening to that song that fits your mood exactly. Most of the time it makes you sadder, giving into your emotions. You have it on blast, drowning out the world around you. Then the song stops and there is complete silence. You feel so vulnerable. Like the one thing that was keeping you strong just vanished, and you’re sitting in a room of silence, your body… empty.

It’s crazy how a girl can look at a guy and freak out about how good looking he is. It’s like he’s perfect. How everything about him makes him seem like he’s a nice guy, like an angel. You love seeing pictures of him, looking at him smile makes you smile. But it’s funny- once you get to know them, everything changes. The “perfect” image we had of this guy, is shattered. Every other girl puts him up on this pedestal, but you know the real him. The one that made you cry and didn’t care about you felt at all. Eventually you never talk to “mr.perfect” again, but you see the way other girls talk to him. You’re not jealous anymore, you just feel bad for those girls. You know they’re making a mistake. They’re melting over his face, while you know the real him. You know that he makes these girls cry, having no respect for them, being just another notch in his belt. i feel bad for those guys: Karma is a bitch.

There’s one person in your life you always have a “thing” for. it doesn’t matter if you’re talking to someone, if you’re going out with someone, or dating someone. That person is the person you care about the most, the person you just cant lose, the person you always wanna be with, and the person who knows how to make you smile. No matter how hard you try, you can’t get your feelings to change. It’s the one person you’d do anything for.